For a little over 3 weeks now the twins have been sleeping through the night (sttn). It started right around the time they turned 4 months. And it’s magical.  We put them down for bed, after bathtime and their last bottle, around 8:30 or 9 – and they sleep until 7:30 the next morning.  Sometimes we even have to wake them up.  It’s amazing.  I know there will be set backs along the way (I’m bracing for teething and growth spurts), but I am really happy we’ve reached this milestone.  Fingers crossed that we have more good nights then bad in the future.

The irony of the situation? Is that while my babies are sttn, I am not! I have not slept a full night in months.  MONTHS. And it’s starting to take it’s toll.  I understood why I wasn’t sleeping when I was super pregnant because I was huge and hormonal.  And I understood why it was hard to get rest when the babies were newborns and waking up every 2-3 hours to eat.  But now?! I can’t understand WHY I cannot sleep.

I fall asleep easily and quickly.  I practically invented the term “asleep before hitting the pillow”. But 3am is truly my witching hour.  I naturally wake up between 3-4am every night and I either can’t get back to sleep for an hour or two, OR I get back to sleep but wake up every 15 minutes.

I don’t drink caffeine (gave it up year ago) and I try not to eat sugar before bed to avoid blood sugar disruption – so I don’t think it’s anything because of my diet.  My hubs doesn’t really snore (one of the many reasons I love him so) but my dog does (!!) and she shares our room and often our bed (terrible I know but I just love her so).  So maybe it’s my dog keeping me up? Or, I suppose it could be the baby monitor? I can hear sounds from the nursery like sighs (so adorable) and rustling from rolling around. I don’t know exactly what it could be.  Maybe it’s just nature.  Maybe this is just life as a parent/mom.  You never sleep well again.  Is this just the rest of my life? Am I going to be tired forever?

I just hope this is a problem that I can fix! Fingers crossed….zzzzzzz.